I pick up pen this morning,
I let the writing flow.
My night of sleep was restless.
Why? I didn't know

Then what appeared on paper,
What emptied from my head,
Was a night of turmoil.
Questions unanswered , words unsaid.

There's so much locked inside me,
I want you all to know,
I'm not the brain of Britain,
I've no certificates to show.

What I know so deeply,
Is for you all to see.
It's how to live your life for now,
And let the past just be.

Forgivness is the key,
It unlocks so many doors.
It leads us to the future,
No more settling old scores.

Why was I 'the way I was?'
So sad and insecure.
It was all the years of fighting
My own demonic wars.

For the saving of my sanity,
And for my own release
I wish to all who hurt me,
Much love and inner peace.

To partners I have loved and lost,
I'll remember all the fun
The lessons learnt I'll keep as well,
It's what my heart thrived on.

For all the friends who've come and gone,
For all who've come and stayed,
Thankyou for the the sparkle,
Your lights will shimmer on.

For family who I couldn't choose,
Some cherished, some let go.
We were together for a reason,
That only god may know.

Inside me there's a dreamer,
A believer in all good.
I'd take all problems of this world,
And conquer them with love.

I'm leaving on a journey now,
Where to, is hard to show.
I may be gone a while,
As I travel through my soul.